Reflections
“I
want what you have.” He said.
Thinking
back and straying from present moment thoughts he had hoped to explain why he
had become a Follower and not a leader of the pack. Had hoped to remind himself why he needed
her. Why he could not live a solitary
life. But it wasn’t working, and he
meant to hurt no feelings. There was a
time when he did his own thing, and just to do a double check, he thought
perhaps it would be important to investigate and have some experience about how
others lived, what they had, and if such things made the world a better place.
“Stop
mimicking me. Stop taking over my life
vicariously. Be more original. Stop saying what you think I want to
hear. Stop being me.” She said.
Not
sure when I had this conversation, nor if it is just material for a new book I
have been considering. Do know that for
the last 5 months or so, my routine has changed. Lost another Best Friend, and it wasn’t The
White Dog. Lost White Dog back in
2006. Before that it was Earl, my mentor
and teacher, who had influenced me since 1965 and beyond. Was White Dog’s Mom, and after 20-plus years,
I know what it means to outlive experience and shared time with others. And so it is, I am back to the basic Idea of
what it would be like, if I ignored the world and the people in it, and did my
own thing.
Can
say without hesitation, I liked it when I had a feminine influence in my
life. Liked being married. Liked the domestic scene. As always, there are things you know are
missing because you spend so much time with a certain person, or group of
people, known to you as your computerizes.
Being domestic is what you call The Couple Routine, that more than less
leads to Family and Family Matters. So
it has taken a few months to realize the changes and that I am back nestled in
the man-cave that just happens when women are excluded and computers and the
reflections of all things passing, take over.
Hence you might notice a new way with this Stoney Blog. Not sure how long this pattern will last,
being that when things get old, people
just stop coming around. Of course that
happens when you convert from a daily blog to monthly contributions, and then
that goes to intermittent, and to tell the truth its hard to keep up with the
nature of his environment and the contents of his head, the source of inner sanctum
life.
“I
want what you have.” He said.
And
that is when he realized that his old life had not prepared him for what he
didn’t know. Didn’t know how the
world had changed when all his attention went inward. He saw what was there as he came in and out
of familiar surroundings, but when that ended and he looked around all he saw
was people in transit, on their devices.
As if what they had was invisible, and to have it materialize one needed
a smart phone or computer watch or a device and more than one screen to tune in
the world as it really is. Not as you
create it, but what is there is the new direction I am going. So I got rid of my hard-wire traditional
telephone, but did not replace it with a smart phone.
Is
the one time when I didn’t mean what I said.
“I
want what you have.”
Not
keen on acquiring a smart phone and for now will be good with acquiring a
Tablet-computer that operates with wifi in the surround. When wifi is, I will be in contact with you. Is this the same as having a conventional
phone ? Too soon for me to know. But am working on it. So this is my new life. Acquiring a device that I can stare at as I
notice others doing, and from that, all else follows. This is how I think it will be, but as I
said. “Too early to tell. Will let you know.”
“I
want what you have.”
And
for a while he needs to explore this new world around him and nearby. He needs to discover what is on these screens
that give you new-life, and a life so very different than the one he has been
living for the last 25 years or so. To
be done without a smart phone, but aided by WiFi, when and where it can be
found, this becomes the new me.
And
am now spending my time going into The Tablet and going online, to acquaint
myself with what’s out there, and what has you so engrossed and devoured by the
devices you have in hand, and the content that has nothing to do with me,
taking over your mind and your focus. As
if I am invisible now, I seek to discover what you have, before I become fully
committed to wanting and devoting my energy to what you have, and I do not.
So
my new focus and new life has me face to face with reflections and even more so
with holograms, and am flirting with wandering off into an escapist landscape
and wonder if I dare proceed without the influence of Stoney, who seems to
always to be in a purple haze or in second hand smoke, or not too far from the
mushroom stand. Now it is different and
am thinking, Stoney Blogger no more.
Reflections
and Holograms and Escape at any cost. So
now must tell you about my first experience with integrating the old with the
new. Happened long ago when in 1980 I
went to a Rolling Stones Concert at the old KingDome in the stadium district of
downtown Seattle. The experience
changed my life.
Now
is time to tell you how it seems to be happening again.
Hatsune
Miku Concert. April 23rd,
2016. And how this is helping me
discover what others have that I do not.
I will tell this story and then stop before this blog becomes impossibly
long. It is not the Rolling Stones but
the influence on me might be the same as I come to know first hand, this is something entirely new. Now how should I let this influence me, change
my life and circumstances, and help this to mold the new-Me.?
Hatsune
Miku, video pop star from Japan is touring the USA, and is starting a
music/video tour and the first stop was in Seattle on April 23rd. Not sure how many attended the concert, as I
was unaware of its’ presence and importance, until now. Having seen a banner on www.coreeo.eu , I followed up and currently
have a 9 hour holographic video of one of her performances, which is scheduled
to compete with the other big screen in my room, which is airing a coaching
video of 2015 New England vs. Buffalo nfl football game without sound.
Hence
it is a multi-vision day, with holographic performers and music on one screen,
and football on another, while reading on my Tablet about
everything-under-the-sun, updated every 12 minutes by some automated news
assembly program that has just shown up as a tool for keeping up with what is
on the Internet.
Holographic
and reflections and an Unreal Live Concert with the live performer being an
Anime Hologram with the voice and music of live performers, including Hatsune
Miku and others providing the sound.
Reminds me of the good old days, before there were Talking Movies in
Hollywood, and we would go to a theater and there would be some musicians
playing in the theater pit, while overhead images and captions would appear on
the screen. Then as now, it would take
some getting use to, but as time goes by things only get better. So am holding back on rushing to judgement
about reflections of this live concert and the hologram performers and the
musical set that become a real night out in concert mode. More than just looking at a screen, and can
say just now. “Captivating. Reflections and Holograms. Will this become the new-Me.?” Real and Unreal on the same stage and in the
same house, separated by devices that only operate when WiFi is present and
operating with enough bandwidth to make it something worth remembering.
Upon
reflection he tells himself, “This is something new.” And wonders if it will have any lasting
effect on him. Wants to know, but isn’t
sure this is the right time to do a deep inquiry. Seems it has never been done before at this
scale and level of sophistication. Anime
in bigger than life-size form, dancing on a stage in front of a live
audience. As if they were live
performers and of course the musicians and their compositions are equal to most
live performances, the added aspect being that the star performer is a
hologram, is why people have paid to be at this concert. Amazingly, something new in Seattle, April 23rd,
2016.
And
now am telling myself, to stay tuned and not tune out The Rolling Stones and
The Who. Just pay attention and if this
influences me and helps me to become a different person, without the drugs and
alcohol, then I ask. “Is this the
new-Me? Reflections and Hologram on
stage. Live. Stoney Hologram-Anime. I can see me now. Just can.
Under the lights and having fun, with my new essence, half real and half
unreal dancing on into the night. The
New-Me.
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