CONFLICT OF INTEREST

CONFLICT OF INTEREST

I don’t want to put undue pressure on myself, and like it when things occur in its natural state.  A rain storm would be a good example.  Unprepared, but then in the moment and it makes me happy.  The unexpected and to respond spontaneously and without a lot of backlash, reminds me of the old days, when technology was at a minimum and people just had no idea, what was going on.  And so today, I am pleased with myself.  Want to get back in a routine that suits me, and it is true I have been in the wobble stage, getting out of synch and orbit with the natural part of my existence. 

 

Like I said, my reference point back then was those things that occurred naturally, in my backyard.  A protected space and we had a fence to keep the dogs in, and the neighbor’s visual point at a minimum.  Nothing new here.  Home and backyard and privacy.  Was a natural starting place for a day in life.  That was then, before technology.  And this how I will build on the subject for today’s blog:   Conflict of Interest.  Will find a way to open up the gate and let you in.  Bring you into my realm and sphere of influence, and even then not sure if you will see me in my natural state, because of course, over time I have had to adjust and improvise. 

 

In my backyard and on the planet, my current natural state is not my preferred existence.  Not sure I can expand on that, being I like to keep my blogs short and mostly impersonal, as a matter of passing entertainment for those who read blogs to get a casual look at how others live and spend their day.  Conflict of Interest, and yet I open the gate and let you in.  With the warning of course, be careful where you walk as I am still in process of picking up the dog’s crap and his leftover’s from yesterday.  Bird carcass included.

 

Conflict of Interest in my backyard and here I am on location, picking up after the dog and windstorm that has spread things around.  Took a few minutes but now have safe passage in a natural state of relaxation and heightened interest.  Like being here, with laptop and the capability to share good times with you.  It is winter, and so I am dressed appropriately, with not that much to see or tell.  Conflict of Interest is the theme and am in the mood to do some exercise.  Too cold to do it in my backyard, and so after doing my chores I will move the action indoors.  Where things will heat up and I will chill, but in a good way.  Have visions of yoga and stretching and getting limber. 

 

Is what has been missing lately, as I spent much of September to December on the road, involved with an experiment to determine if I could combine my normal solo state of existence with another, go on the road and develop the possibility of being a snowbird, which suggests heading into the sun, leaving the comforts of home and backyard behind, and with dog on leash, join the millions that have found an alternative way of life, called Snow-Birding.   Ok, so I have mentioned this before and it turns out my travel companion has a conflict of interest, that resides away from me.  Family and Work call out.  Not ready to abandon the life and take on the characteristics of a rolling stone.  

 

So after 3 months in the let’s-try-it-stage, Stoney blogger has returned home and its time to exercise and get back into shape.  Shape the mind.  Work on the body.  Write some blogs.  Watch some football.  Be a guy.  Do the man thing.  And so that’s where you find me.  In my backyard.  Picking up after the dog.  Figuring out what comes next.  Conflict of Interest and sharing the backyard with you.  Then realizing that it is too cold to do this for very long.  So I am headed inside.

Inside now, and getting down to the bare essentials.  Backyard chores are done.  Conflict of Interest, done.  Now is time for me to relax and listen to self and music.  Feels good to be free of worry and the hassle of commuting to work.  Stress free and that’s the part I want you to see.  Dog is curling up by the fire.  Happy with the present moment.  Not going back to the RV until the Super Bowl is over.  That happens on Sunday.  The last of the football for me, and will plant some seeds and get an early start on Spring and baseball and the boys of summer. 

Renewable energy produced by a little white ball hit by a bat, and at a certain level, is harder to do than one could imagine.  Backyard days and stick ball.  Easy to enjoy and hit the fence, just 20 feet away.  Now it’s a major sport, as is football and is done by an exclusive group of athletes .  Seems when backyard activities become big business there is a conflict of interest.  But that’s where I change directions.  Because my local team is still involved, and the Super Bowl is next Sunday, I will keep at it.

Will read the sports headlines and a few articles.  Will watch to see what others are doing and coping with.  But mostly I will stay walking distance from my backyard, forget about The RV and Sunshine on the immediate horizon.  Won’t chase.  Will let the day and its’ contents come to me, naturally.  And that’s it.  In my natural state.  Not going to Arizona for the week or weekend.  Will be like millions of ordinary people and guys.  Watching the Super Bowl Game on TV and on the big screen.  And thinking.  This is it.  Football season is over.  Life as we know it has ended.  And then it dawns on me.  Conflict of Interest and the answer is in my backyard. 

 

All I have to do, is wake the dog.  Grab the favorite toy, and exit whatever state of mind that has a hold on me, and makes me think:  Football.  My meaning in life.  Time to find out what’s out there.  In my backyard and beyond the fence.  Time to leave sports behind, and find something better to invest in and fill out my day.

 

So that’s my blog for today.  Snow-birding with a friend is fun.  Going to the Super Bowl is fun.  And so is something simple like blogging and sharing time with you.  Will strip down now, and get my exercise mat out.  Want to do a little yoga and stretching and be flexible.  Life without football, and its possible.  But even better, before we leave this conversation, I must say:  “Go Hawks.” 

 

Knowing the rest of winter and the time before spring baseball will be easier to handle, if my team wins two Super Bowl championships in consecutive years.  Not a common feat or occurrence.  So here I am.  That’s my blog for today.  How are you?