SIT DOWN

SIT DOWN




I am about to embark on a new approach.  Will take the position that when you and I sit down together, something good will happen.  Following this theme into a well written blog is my intention.  Scattered around the foreground of this thought, is my need to get back into the groove, make word-music that is harmonious and rhythmic and reoccurring.  Comes down to using my time in an efficient manner.  Have manners.  Sit down with you, and do more than say, "Howdy."   Do more than posture that I have oh so many friends on facebook, and no time to communicate.  Getting past the blank screen of an unintended mind, is easy.  Know that when you start this day, I want to be with you, at least in the beginning.  Won’t analyze what that means.  Mostly tuned in to the warmth of summer and the smile I just know, comes with you.   So we sit down.  Not like we sit across a negotiating table.  This is a volunteer assignment.  Making time.  Want to do this.  Not sure how deep my history with you might be, as this is a public channel and many unknowns come and go.  But on this day I will do my best to satisfy your every need, when you and I sit down together.







Maybe I should be more careful.  Lead with my head.  Give you something to aim for.  Know that satisfying your every need from a distance is wishful thinking, but then again its how in a perfect world, it should be.  Come with full intention to me nice.  To do what others desire of you.  Am sure you can understand this thought, even as we might question in the moment, how to go about doing this.  What he talks about mostly, is missing the opportunity to make things better.  Talks about being with you, without going into details.  And perhaps details are what we need.  Be specific.  What can you do for me?  And he smiles.  Its tea time.  Maybe just an early morning conversation before you shower and run off to work is all that is needed.  





It may be the little things that are important here, and we can pass by the idea that we choose to do very little together.  Know its impossible to spend a lot of time with each other, when he blogs only once a month.  Has gotten into that habit now.  And you want him or her to more available.  Thinking about that, I am sure that when you and I sit down together, we can discuss all that and a little more.  That would be exciting.




 
Truth is I have gotten myself over-extended.  Have too much meat, and no potatoes or gravy, nor greens on my plate.  Starved by attending to deadlines and basics.  Not enough time with you.  That is what comes to mind, as tea arrives and I stir the pot, with words sent in your direction.  Sit down.  Put it all together.  What’s on your mind? Do I have a laundry list and a code of conduct for handling my business, when I am making you my primary assignment for this day.  He talks a lot, when he makes himself available.  But he hasn’t been around lately.  Not sure what I think about that, as there are so many people on the Internet, why do I need to be concerned with him?  





 
Most of the time he is not around.  Why bother now?  And of course, sitting down with you, gets me in the mood.  Will make the best effort to talk about it, once we agree on a mutually inclusive topic that interests us.  And so I stare into the living room, noticing that it is empty.  Dogs in the backyard digging bones up, that were carefully placed, when he had yard time.  Have time on my hands and speculating that when you and I sit down together, this will be a happy time and as good as it will get for me, today.



 

Sounds good on paper.  But once in print, it bears a full examination.  The world is a busy place.  Who has time to just sit and have a cup of tea, and just talk.  This is not the 50’s, when only Father works, and mother has time.  And when he comes around, she enjoys his company.  Safe and wonderful contact with somebody out there that declares.  " I am here for you.  What’s up?"



 

I like it when we agree, having company can be fun and worthwhile.  The art of manliness suggests that he should initiate first contact, and then follow through.  Not just flirt with friendship, but actually be there, affirm that he is involved for the long run.  Having said that, he is aware he can’t have it all his way.  Agreement and disagreement happen even when just sitting down for a nice cup of tea.  Is only a metaphor for warmth and sharing.  Intimate corner of the kitchen, the nook, and realize that it is the inner fire that must be started, as most folks have electric heat, and campfire warmth is not included, when one sits down to conversation and tea.  



 

Now he realizes he does not want to talk about Starbucks and how they now have included tea on their coffee menu.  Confusing to me, what others do.  But now I know, its just you and I on this day, and the conversation should go in your direction, encouraging you to open up and surely, tell me what’s going on, what is important to you.  Tea, beer or hot cocoa.  Even coffee, and I am thinking its been a long time since we have done this.  Not exactly holding hands, but then again holding a conversation that interests both of us, is worth doing.  This is my chance to declare publicly that I adore you, and look forward to this time together.

 



You don’t believe him.  He hasn’t been there for you.  On your birthday.  When your team won the big game, where was he, exactly.  And that is the point.  It is difficult at best, when we don’t make time for each other.  Blogging and he comes around once a month, and tries to make things sound like this is the place and everybody here, is his best friend.  Not sure what the plan is.  Show up.  Create goodwill.  Leave a space where others can contact you, knowing you will at least answer your comments with a bit of substance, now that you have initiated the conversation.  

 
As for me, a biscuit and a cup of tea, and time writing as if you are sitting across the table from me, and hoping you feel the same.  Blogging is good.  Friends are something we all need.  Not a dispute resolution process, we realize he is doing his best.  Show up.  Be available.  And answer back.  Beyond that, what do we really expect from our online friends.  On this day, the subject as presented, sounds good.  But then again when you and I sit down together, our time together should suit the two of us.  And now I wonder.  Is this possible?  Blogging.  Online.  How satisfying can it get.  Having tea with him?